Several months have passed since my last blog. I haven't felt as though I needed this to fill my time anymore, but it seems I've gone back to my too many hours in a day rut.
I got a gym membership and started working out, and it went well for a while. But now i don't have the motivation to get out of bed let alone go to the gym.
I had my garden that's been pruned and picked and died.
I spent my days invested in random books from around the house, the Horse whisperer, The Hobbit, Some fiction Anceint History book, Choke, The Twilight series ( I finished all 4 books in a week), I even started reading an old addition of childrens fairy tales. Now I can't find anything that captures my attention enough for me to give it the time of day.
I've started looking for a paper route to get me out of the house.
I've been watching a retouching video trying to update my skills and just get back into what I want to do, but it's not the same as it used to be.
We submitted our application in late December of last year for our DeFacto Visa, and now that it's in, this is all a waiting game and it feels as though I'm failing right now. I've become impatient.
I want to start living my life again, to work to have a reason to get up in the morning. I'm trying to stay positive but I'm fininding it hard again couped up trapped. All I can do it wait.
waiting...and waiting....and waiting...
